Hence this leads to some paralysis.
I have to admit that often what makes me hide under this tree ( or want to go to bed at 8pm when its dark, oh make that 5pm) is when I start worring about money. Now granted when i was single and lived alone in my modest condo I was fine. I was all about knowing I had more coming in than going out. Insert a sudden "Tsunami" in your life, for lack of a better term other than "death of spouse" and its a bit overwhelming. All the sudden there is ALOT to manage. I know i am capable of it, and i have no doubt that I can and will be fine and will figure it out, but its a bit like you are in quick sand because you dont know how long you can stay afloat. Or if you turn your head the wrong direction you may slip under bc the rope someone hands you is behind you and you are looking the other way.
No need to get into details but this has obviously made me a bit skitish about committing to races or anything really besides my day to day living. I even realized I hadnt been to the grocery store in a week. Which meant i had no spinach and no broccoli, staples i love. Then again I had kale. Never far from green veggies at my house and luckily my
So as far as races go.. hmm. Triathlon. Lets do a What i know list:
I know today that i am not signing up for an IM until after 1/1/13
I know today that I am signing up for AG natz, bc lucky me only raced 2x last year ( USAT races) and one was IM MOO and i was top 10% so lucky gal I am.
I know today that I am doing BSLT 70.3. Hats off to Marti Greer for letting me in after having to drop out last year due to Rich and to my hammy issue.
I know today that I may do Vegas if i qualify.
I know today that I may do Cozumel, if its open when i decide.
I know today that I am actually ok and maybe actually smart to skip IM this year and sign up for IMLP 2014, eh all you IMLP die hards, tell me its as good as i hear:)
Ok I had about 3 mintues to post this but i wanted to just check in.
Thanks for reading:)
PS Oh i won a 5k with Marit, that should have a race report but its sorta boring. Lots of heavy breathing (ME), Spitting ( Marit) and I waited 6 seconds to be precise to cross the line with her. We both won a pie. And my sister won a pie for 3rd woman, so on the pie front we dominated.