Thanks for the nice comments. I seriously am not a complainer and even tho my coach may think i really love emailing and talking to her like 4x day i prefer to be under the radar. So thanks Jen for your concern, thinking i may jump. I can say that sometimes your cognitive brain KNOWS you are overreacting, but you are still upset and you cant shake it. That is scary. It made me really feel for women that get real PMS or have other mental health challenges. I cant put my finger on it for sure, but i know that i spent some time talking to the best husband out there and looking at the pressure i put on myself and trying to look, objectively, at my motivations for why i do Tri.
It's so easy to get caught up in " better, stronger, faster " and we are fooling ourselves if we dont often look externally for that "magic" to get us there. I know i need to keep on looking internally and trust myself to make decisions, maybe even mid-lunge, about the workout and not forge on thru just to GET ER DONE. I am still working on not beating myself up on this but as we know, how many of us in our professional life have said " Do as i say, not as i do." I have an uncanny ability to guide and coach others with physical therapy and biomechanical challenges, but when it comes to me, that logic often goes right out the window into a snow bank.
So as i said, the sun has risen. I am fine. Life is fine. My adductor is doing better, i can walk now and my PT said its just a strain and she gave it some MFR and TLC. ( Myofascial Release) and you all know what TLC is. You dont actually have trigger points in the belly of your adductors so foam rolling more than the insertion medial to your knee hurts like hell and i found that out after 1 second.
Other than that hubby worked a bit late last night Valentine's night, and we had celebrated sunday so i was expecting nothing. He walked in and brought me 12 red roses, raspberries, and a great bar of 70% dark chocolate by BT Mc Elrath, a local Chocolatier. That is the kind i go "oh that's too $$ i will buy the lindt." so what a treat. He also brought sushi ( grocery store) but still the thought that counts. I had eaten. and so he said "Oh good, i wanted the sushi!" Ha, classic.
Again, thanks for your support and I do mean it when i say that even tho i dont know some of you, i didnt bat an eye when i wrote that blog bc I knew i needed some other people at my pity party. Party over, back to postive thinking:) Hope i can return the favor if you need me.